The Inverted Truth (Saints & Haints, Chapter 36)

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If you're joining me for the first time, I am a person who was once Agnostic. I converted to Christianity fairly recently, three and half years ago, precisely; because, at that time, I was attacked by a group of demons. I am still regularly attacked by some of those demons.

One might say that this is my first sermon.

Here, I discuss the fallacies in the "church version" of Christianity, why that version of the story isn't working anymore, and what I've found, in what is now my fourth year of this spiritual journey, to be the truth instead.

This piece was inserted at this point in my second book because I knew that I could no longer skate around this topic. The rest of my story wouldn't make sense if my readers didn't understand these concepts.

I quote scripture from the King James Version of the Bible in this piece, because I felt that it was a middle-of-the-road choice, closer to the original texts than more recent translations, and close to the 1609 Douay-Rheims in the specific passages I've chosen.

It's a long one, but well worth it, I hope!

Chapter 36
The Inverted Truth


If you think that I've spent the last two and a half years arguing with or laughing at demons for nothing, well, you're wrong. During that time I have devoted myself to theological studies, while also searching my soul and reaching out to anyone and everyone in the universe and beyond who might help me. After all, I've had good reason. You may have noticed that it seems as if the spiritual assistance available to someone in my situation --someone with demons, that is-- is quite limited. It would seem that in all those hours of daily prayer I used to do, I must've never found exactly the right words to get rid of demons. Let me tell you why.

"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities,
against powers,
against the rulers
of the darkness of this world,
against spiritual wickedness
in high places."

-St. Paul, Ephesians 6:12, KJV

The god of the Old Testament is Satan, okay?
Blunt as that may be, there is no gentler way to say it. You must understand that in order to understand the rest of this book, or the Bible, Christian religion, or life and death on this planet. I intend to address this topic, and others, more thoroughly, and perhaps more convincingly, with additional scriptural references, in a forthcoming book; but just in case I don't make it that far, and because you need to understand this much right now, here are the basics.


Not What You Think

Christianity, the way it's packaged and sold to us by churches, would have us believe that God --the God, the only one-- created this place, and Adam and Eve, one week, out of boredom, I guess. As the story goes, he placed a tree with forbidden fruit in the garden, instructing Adam and Eve that they may eat from any tree except that one. I, for one, always thought,
"Doesn't that sound like he's setting them up to fail? Why would he do that?"
Then, of course, they do fail. They eat the forbidden fruit, and then they're in trouble; they're punished. Eve is punished more harshly than Adam, by having to endure painful childbirth. Adam is punished by having to work and earn his bread "by the sweat of his brow."

Sometime after that, as the story goes, there's a flood which destroys most of the life on Earth. "Because everyone is so sinful," is the only reason stated. Noah's family is saved, because he is the only righteous man on the planet, apparently; and he is instructed to save one pair of every animal species. Actually, though, later in Genesis, we learn that Noah was a drunk, who gets wasted sometime after the flood, passes out naked in a tent, and then puts a curse on his son Ham, for having seen his nakedness. Noah also sacrifices two of the birds he'd just saved, to "God," immediately after exiting the ark.

If I were reading Genesis for the first time, and taking it at face value, and as a literal account of the truth, I would only be able to ask myself,
"What the fuck, Noah?"
Furthermore, what about all those innocent animals who perished? What about the little children? They were all more sinful than that guy? They deserved a horrific, painful death by drowning? Apparently so, according to the church version of the story.

The god who actually created this world, however, is better known these days as Satan.

Figuratively speaking, Satan is the father of us all. There are others in the scripture who may at times be referred to as "Satan," "the devil," "Hades," "The Prince of Hell," or even as "God," "a god," or "the Lord." Those are his associates, who worked for, or with, him. Occasionally they worked against him, which leads to some confusion. Still, to understand the one we know of as Satan to be both the God and Satan of this world, and to be both God and Satan in the Old Testament, is not incorrect. It's a bit of a generalization at times, but it's a good place to start. The real God hadn't made an appearance yet. The world was ruled by several Satanic deities, most of whom were evil, before Jesus came to save us from them.

Throughout the Old Testament, both human and animal sacrifices, and even child sacrifices, are offered to "gods," even the alleged God, the one we're supposed to love and admire, according to the church version of the story. It's not as if he didn't want these sacrifices; he actually gave a list of instructions on how to carry out these ritual sacrifices. (See for reference Leviticus Chapter 1) How people have managed to not see that as proof that he's Satan, is proof of how much influence he has over most people.

I imagine that the people living in those times were compliant because they had been indoctrinated from birth to accept and to participate in such religious practices. They'd never known anything else; and it's likely that they were afraid not to obey. The wrath of vengeful gods was something to be feared.
The Old Testament gods doled out harsh punishments; entire cities were destroyed or stricken with plagues. They did these things, more often than not, because they were fighting amongst themselves, often for the control of a certain population, and humans suffered for it. There was a strong sense of,
"You are under our thumbs, and we will squash you if we want to."
In other words, they had done a good job of suppressing our Divine natures.
Those gods didn't respect us as individuals; in fact we were --and still are-- currency to them. They placed no value on our wellbeing, however, and our suffering was inconsequential to them.

1 Samuel provides some good examples of what I'm talking about.
In 1 Samuel, an entire population is tortured into submission; stricken with plagues for twenty years. After that, a god of the Old Testament instructs them to remove all their statues of Baal and Astarte and to worship only him.

Also in 1 Samuel, some god sends an evil
spirit to possess Samuel, and then Saul, and then David, in order to rule through them. This evil spirit turns Saul against David; influencing Saul to make numerous attempts on David's life. It's clear that both Saul and David were being toyed with and used, by two gods who wanted different things from that group of people. It was like the board game Risk, being played amongst a group of divine beings (who might be understood as demons these days), although scripture doesn't make it clear who (or what) exactly they are.


Sometime later, apparently, as the church version of the story goes, "God" decides to make amends with everyone. He does this by impregnating a woman through what seems to be magical means, in order to send his son, who is actually himself, and then ordering his son to die for the sins of humanity.
So... he sacrificed himself, to himself, to pay for our sins; sins which he himself had declared to be sins, and which he himself had set us up to commit in the first place. This was done to save us from going to Hell, where he himself would have been sending us... according to the church version of the story.
So... he couldn't have just said that it's okay, and we don't have to go to Hell? He couldn't have just announced that Heaven is open now, without a sacrifice being required? Why more people have not questioned that, is beyond my understanding.

Actually, it wouldn't even have been Hell, as most people think of Hell, that we would have been going to. It wouldn't have been a fiery place of torture; it would have been Sheol, the Old Testament abode of the dead. Sheol is comparable to, and the exact same place as, the underworld of Greek and Roman mythology. It is not described as a place of torment. Then again, it is not described very much at all, at least not in the books which are included in the Bible.

The Battle for the Universe

The church version of the Christian story does not make any sense, and no one with half a brain can be expected to believe it. That version of the story is the reason that I was Agnostic for most of my adult life, and it is the reason why I still sympathize with Agnostics and Atheists. It is the reason why I looked instead toward a scientific understanding of existence, and would have kept that frame of mind for the rest of my life, had I not seen ghosts with my own eyes, touched them with my own hands, heard them with my own ears (as well as telepathically), and even recorded their voices as evidence. The church version of the story is the reason why I had to have proof to start believing in anything. It is also the reason why most Christians have such firmly cemented misunderstandings of sin, and the need to fear a vengeful God. Once one realizes that they should reconsider the story, replacing "God" with "Satan" in the Old Testament, it becomes clear that what actually happened during the life and death of Jesus was a change in administration.

Galatians 4:4-7, KJV

"...but when the fulness of the time was come, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law, to redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father. Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ."

If the God, the real one, the true Most High, was our Father and Creator all along, why does He need to adopt us? 

It was actually a hostile takeover; one which seems long overdue from our perspective, but that may, in fact, have been a long time in the works. Here are a few pieces of evidence:

There was a battle.

Matthew 11:12, KJV,
"And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force."

This is not a metaphor about how evildoers attack the righteous, etc. That has always been the case. If this was a metaphor, there would be no need to specify "from the days of John the Baptist." There was an actual war.  Some outsiders, John the Baptist and Jesus, came here and attacked Satan's administration.

It was a battle for the entire universe.
Yahweh, one of the gods in the Old Testament, was called King of the Universe at one time.

3 Enoch 48B:1
"These are the seventy-two names written on
the heart of the Holy One, Blessed be He: Righteousness, - , Righteous (one) -,
Lord of Host, God Almighty, God, YHWH - - - Living (one) - Riding upon the Araboth (highest heaven), - Life Giver - King
of Kings, Holy One - - Holy, Holy, Holy, - - - Blessed be the Name of His glorious kingdom for ever and ever, - - Complete,
King of the Universe, - - The beginning of Wisdom for the children of men..."

There are several points also in The Jerusalem Talmud, in which Yahweh is referred to as "Master of the Universe." The Jerusalem Talmud is one of two books recording the oral traditions of the Hebrew people. The other is The Babylonian Talmud.

The outcome of this battle was that the prince of this world was cast out.

John 12:31, KJV,
"Now is the judgment of this world: now shall the prince of this world be cast out."

John 7:7, KJV,
"The world cannot hate you; but me it hateth, because I testify of it, that the works thereof are evil."

Are we to surmise then that Jesus was sent to judge and to testify against His own Father's design? I think not. 

Satan created the entire universe. That concept is difficult for us to grasp, because this universe is all we know, or all that we have scientific evidence of, anyway. If you think about it, though, it makes perfect sense, because everything in the universe works together; the moon influences the tides, etc. The solar system is a system of planets in orbit around the sun. The entire universe was created by the same person. As to why a hostile takeover of the universe was warranted; well, because we're Divine beings too, and we shouldn't have to be trapped here, and we shouldn't have to be limited to forms which keep us from embracing our full Divinity, both in life and in death.


Not Who You Think

Unless one is an Atheist, which is something that I can't be anymore, one of the biggest proofs that Satan created this place is not found in scripture; it's found by taking a look around ourselves.

Alongside the beautiful creations, like flowers and kittens, there also exists a plethora of nasty things, like maggots, ticks, gnats, mosquitoes, hornets, yellow jackets, stink bugs, poison ivy, snakes, and worms. There are cancer cells, viruses, and bacteria; all of which are living organisms, conceived of, and brought to life intentionally by a creator god, and all of which lead to sickness, old age, death, and the suffering of loved ones left behind to mourn. Why would a good, loving God put us here, or kittens and puppies either, for that matter, just to watch us struggle and suffer until we die of disease? The church version of the story would have us believe that it's all a punishment because of Adam and Eve's disobedience, but that explanation implies that we are being punished for someone else's wrongdoings. If that sits right with you, there's something wrong. 

The notion that angels, or Divine beings of some sort, built this place is not merely my fantasy, and I am certainly not the first person to reach that conclusion. Some Bibles, such as The Names of God Bible, those which retain the original Hebrew terminology, read that "Elohim," not "God," created this world. Those translations also read that it was "Yahweh," not "God," who promised a baby to Sarah and Abraham. Therefore, Genesis states that Yahweh came, in person, to the home of Sarah and Abraham, to announce to them that they would have a son.

Yahweh (referred to as "God") walked on the Earth and talked to people in Genesis.

"God," in the Old Testament, is also heard speaking, in several instances, as a loud thundering voice from the sky. I've heard that a time or two myself.

Here are some scriptural references which further prove this point:

In John 5:37 (KJV), Jesus says,
"And the Father himself, which hath sent me, hath borne witness of me. Ye have neither heard his voice at any time, nor seen his shape."

Yahweh is definitely not the Father whom Jesus is referring to, because Yahweh talked to people and physically walked on the Earth.

John 8:19,
"Then said they unto him, Where is thy Father? Jesus answered, Ye neither know me, nor my Father: if ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also."

Well, Yahweh made himself known to people, it seems. He had spoken with the Old Testament patriarchs, like Abraham, as well as the prophets, and numerous others.

In John 8:44, Jesus says,
"Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it."

He couldn't have made it clearer.

John 10:7-10,
"Then said Jesus unto them again, Verily, verily, I say unto you, I am the door of the sheep. All that ever came before me are thieves and robbers: but the sheep did not hear them. I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture. The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."

Jesus came to offer us better conditions.

I do think there's something to that "Two Jesuses" message I received, the one I mentioned in previous chapters, as well as the "Military strategy" message. There are places, even within the same gospel, where Jesus appears to contradict Himself. What I am most inclined to believe, is that those two messages go together, and that they were meant as a confirmation of something that I was only beginning to catch onto at the time. That is, that at times, Jesus was attempting to seem as if He was not in opposition to Satan, because of a military strategy. The passages quoted above, however, are not Satan-appeasing passages; they are nothing that Satan would want us to learn about. Therefore, I conclude that those passages are the raw truth with no doublespeak in them, and they make it clear that Yahweh is not the Father He serves.


Showboating Deities

As I mentioned previously, The Old Testament makes it clear that people like ourselves were merely pawns in the game, when it came to the power struggles of the gods. One of the greatest proofs that the Old Testament is full of showboating deities, at odds with each other over the rulership of certain groups of people, is found in Exodus, chapters 7-12. In these chapters, a literal magic showdown takes place; with Moses and Aaron on one side, against Pharoah's wise men and magicians. This showdown might seem to be between these humans, but it is actually a battle between deities. One Old Testament god is supplying the magical powers wielded by Moses and Aaron; that much is spelled out directly in Exodus. What is not made clear is that the Egyptians had someone else supplying their supernatural abilities. This was part of the battle to free the Hebrew people from bondage to the Egyptians, and it eventually resulted in the slaying of all the firstborn sons of Egypt. One of the reasons for this dispute was that the Egyptians didn't approve of the Hebrews' animal sacrifices to their god; they viewed them as abominations (Exodus 9:25-26).

Here are a few references to some other undesirable deities of the Old Testament, namely Chemosh and Molech. People were actually burning their children as sacrifices to Molech. A different Old Testament god later presents himself as an enemy of those guys, and forbids that form of worship.

Deuteronomy 18:10-11, KJV,
"There shall not be found among you any one that maketh his son or daughter to pass through the fire, or that useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch, or a charmer, or a consulter with familiar spirits, or a wizard, or a necromancer."

I'll point out that the creator god, in Genesis, specifies that one of the intended purposes for the lights in the Heavens (i.e. the moon) was for them to be used for the observance of times; which I'm convinced means, in this context, something like a witch's sabbat held on a full moon night. It definitely doesn't mean to "observe times," as in to mark the days off on a calendar. Why in the world would this other god, the one quoted here in Deuteronomy, be opposed to that? This god would, however, be opposed to anything pertaining to the worship of any other god, as they all seem to be.
So, we were, in the beginning, supposed to participate in rituals associated with moon phases, or something to that effect; but now, at this point in the scripture, those activities are forbidden. This passage makes it clear that the balance of power had shifted, at least for the Jews, by the time the Torah was written.

I'll also point out that sometimes one can't avoid consulting with familiar spirits. Sometimes familiar spirits come to consult with you.

But, moving along,
1 Kings 11:7, KJV,
"Then did Solomon build an high place for Chemosh, the abomination of Moab, in the hill that is before Jerusalem, and for Molech, the abomination of the children of Ammon."

2 Kings 23:10, KJV,
"And he defiled Topheth, which is in the valley of the children of Hinnom, that no man might make his son or his daughter to pass through the fire to Molech."


A Godly Man is a Feminist

Satan is a pervert, yet he hates women. This is something I picked up on quickly from talking to demons; but, even if I hadn't, there are plenty of indications of this in the scripture that would have told me so.
Here are a few:

Isaiah 3:16-24, KJV,
"...Because the daughters of Zion are haughty, and walk with stretched forth necks and wanton eyes, walking and mincing as they go, and making a tinkling with their feet: Therefore the Lord will smite with a scab the crown of the head of the daughters of Zion,
and the LORD will discover their secret parts. 

(What?)

In that day the Lord will take away the bravery of their tinkling ornaments about their feet, and their cauls, and their round tires like the moon, The chains, and the bracelets, and the mufflers, The bonnets, and the ornaments of the legs, and the headbands, and the tablets, and the earrings, The rings, and nose jewels, The changeable suits of apparel, and the mantles, and the wimples, and the crisping pins, The glasses, and the fine linen, and the hoods, and the vails.

And it shall come to pass, that instead of sweet smell there shall be stink; and instead of a girdle a rent; and instead of well set hair baldness; and instead of a stomacher a girding of sackcloth; and burning instead of beauty." 

This god of the Old Testament is referring to burning women at the stake, and relishing the thought of it.

I only recently made it to Isaiah. This next passage is the reason I threw my Bible down as a teenager, and vowed that I would have nothing to do with that asshole, even if he was God:

Leviticus 12:2-5, KJV,
"...If a woman have conceived seed, and born a man child: then she shall be unclean seven days; according to the days of the separation for her infirmity shall she be unclean. And in the eighth day the flesh of his foreskin shall be circumcised. And she shall then continue in the blood of her purifying three and thirty days; she shall touch no hallowed thing, nor come into the sanctuary, until the days of her purifying be fulfilled. But if she bear a maid child, then she shall be unclean two weeks, as in her separation: and she shall continue in
the blood of her purifying threescore and six days."

"Unclean" after bearing a child.
Unclean for 33 days, if the child is a boy; unclean for 66 days, if the child is a girl.
"Can touch no hallowed thing."
There is no actual, spiritual reason for that. I absolutely cannot think of a legitimate excuse, nor a plausible explanation for that rule.
Women are nasty. Childbirth is nasty. But having a baby girl is nastier than having a baby boy. That's what he's saying. That's what that passage said to me, at age 16; and I wasn't wrong. I have a Master's degree in English now, as well as extensive knowledge of the spirit world, and that's still exactly what it says. I wasn't wrong to be that mad about it, either; in fact, that was precisely the reaction a true Christian should have. My mistake was in thinking that it was the real God, Jesus's true Father, whom I was turning against; and I thought that because of deceptive and misguided church teachings.

That misogynistic attitude is contagious; which I know, because I've definitely noticed it from my demons, at times, at least. That attitude is spoon fed to them from Satan himself. It's his influence; and it comes down the pipeline, so to speak, to them, and to living people as well. They'll go off on these tangents, telling me that I can't earn a decent living on my own; not because I'm not capable, but because I'm not allowed to support myself, here in Satan's domain. They tell me that women are supposed to earn a living by being "useful," sexually, to their husbands, or else by becoming prostitutes. That's all Satan has for us, according to them, when they're afflicted with misogyny sickness.

My demons aren't the only ones who are often afflicted by this illness. The early church fathers caught it too. Following the death and resurrection of Jesus, the early church fathers went on to found a sexist church in which women are second class citizens.
This attitude was certainly inspired by Satanic influence; and, most likely, by these words of Paul,

1 Timothy 2:7-12
"Whereunto I am ordained a preacher, and an apostle, (I speak the truth in Christ, and lie not;) a teacher of the Gentiles in faith and verity. I will therefore that men pray every where, lifting up holy hands, without wrath and doubting. In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array; But (which becometh women professing godliness) with good works. Let the woman learn in silence with all subjection. But I suffer not a woman to teach, nor to usurp authority over the man, but to be in silence."

Most of that paragraph could easily be mistaken for something dictated by Isaiah, while he was streaming Satan himself. Paul, while he gives us invaluable wisdom at times, should be shamefaced, for writing that. He must've been shameus-infested to have ever thought such nonsense, and it wreaks of fragile masculinity. I see very little possibility that this is an encoded message, a metaphor, or a doublespeak statement. Shamefacedness can only mean being ashamed of oneself. That is something that I know from firsthand experience that demons desire for us. It is nothing that Jesus would ever want for us. This passage is a purely Satanic message. It has been used as an excuse for the abuse of women, and it has been detrimental to the church as a whole. Refusing the teachings of women is probably the reason why the church has never figured out, in 2,000 years, anything close to the truth about demons. 

Possessed Prophets

The prophets of old would be diagnosed with Schizophrenia and institutionalized these days. I bring this up because, I imagine that many of you may have never thought all that much about what it would be like to be spoken to by "God," what that would mean exactly, or how such a thing would occur.

When those prophets were spoken to by so-called "gods," they were experiencing exactly what I experience; exactly what I have been writing about.

1 Samuel tells the story of how Samuel was the answer to his barren mother's prayers. In return for her prayers being answered, Samuel's mother gave him to "God" as a small child; by leaving him in the care of the priests at the temple, to be raised there, and to later serve at the temple, is what is commonly assumed. Samuel went on to become a possessed prophet; a vessel through which some Old Testament deity could lead. I understand that most people probably wouldn't see possession in that story, but it's there; that's exactly what was going on with Samuel and the Old Testament prophets... except for Jonah and Daniel. Their experiences are a little bit different, but they are still examples of communication with spirits.

Here are a few excerpts, from the prophet Ezekiel. These passages from his vision, of creatures he calls angels, might help to clarify why I'm certain that the prophets of old were possessed.

In Ezekiel 1:21, KJV,
After Ezekiel describes seeing both living creatures, and non-living, mechanical wheels, he states,
"When those went, these went; and when those stood, these stood; and when those were lifted up from the earth, the wheels were lifted up over against them: for the spirit of the living creature was in the wheels."

Ezekiel understood that the spirit of the living creature was in the wheels, without that detail being explained to him in words. He seems to have just known that, to have automatically understood it; and what he describes would surely have been a foreign concept to a living man, and nothing that he could have discerned using deductive reasoning alone. That is an example of a thought-transference.

Ezekiel 1:24, KJV,
"And when they went, I heard the noise of their wings, like the noise of great waters, as the voice of the Almighty, the voice of speech, as the noise of an host..."

I believe that this noise, which Ezekiel identifies as the sound of their wings, is the same thing as the "crickets" I have so often mentioned hearing. Also, Ezekiel seems to be saying that he hears the voice of the Almighty within the sound. I understand that too; though I never would have, if I had not been possessed. I am certain that he means that the sound became understandable as words, which is one of the first things I experienced, early in my possession. For me, it was the sound of raindrops, and the sound of my space heater. I began to hear the demons' words through those sounds; as if the dripping of the raindrops became understandable as the syllables of words. For example, the rain would go "Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip," and I would hear "I. Am. A. De. Mon," or some other message, with the syllables corresponding with the drips.

We are indebted to Ezekiel for describing his experience in such detail.


Up? Down? Who knows?

The Catholic Church, which was the Christian church, the only one, for centuries, removed Enoch from the Old Testament; where it had always been, to the best of my knowledge,
even in the time of Jesus. This was a calculated move; and a very different thing than rejecting more contemporary writings which might have been considered for inclusion in the New Testament, which is something they also did. For example, The Gospel of the Birth of Mary didn't make canonization, yet Catholics believe it, and observe a feast day for Mary's parents, Anne and Joachim, even though they are never mentioned in canonized scripture. The Gospel of the Birth of Mary would have been a relatively new manuscript, though. To cut out a chunk of the Old Testament, one that had always been there, is a different thing; and fishy, if you ask me. It's exactly what many Catholics hate Martin Luther for doing. I think it was done because Enoch makes it even more obvious than the other Old Testament books that the god in that story is not the same as the one in the New Testament. The understanding that we were not created by the (real) one, true, Most High God, is the basic principle of Gnosticism. The Catholic Church, indirectly, at least, had people killed for believing this. (For reference, read about what happened to a religious group called the Cathars sometime.)

The early church fathers, for some reason, founded a church that honors Satan's laws, yet still allows the option of going to Heaven (Jesus' Kingdom) upon death. It's a half-Satanic, half-Christian doctrine which teaches misleading and confusing messages, like the ones I've mentioned already; messages which lead to wrong-thoughted conclusions. Church teachings place the blame on us.
It's all our fault, anything bad that has happened to us, according to the church.
For example, if we have demons, it's because we did something to open a door for them, and so on, and so forth. God is punishing us now, and we'd better beg for forgiveness. That is a Satanic message.

It is difficult to discern whether this was done to protect us, or if it is simply more proof of demonic influence in the church from the beginning. Although I definitely recognize the demonic influence, and address it as often as possible, I have pondered the possibility that the church was set up that way for our protection. Satan is overthrown; but we will still have better lives here if we don't piss him off, basically. This is because he controls legions of demons who are still in residence on this planet, and they will attack us if we do piss him off... or if we piss them off... or if we're attractive... or if we're saintly... or if we're beginning to figure out the truth... etc., etc. It's best to keep a low profile, maybe; keep our blinders on. Maybe that's what they were thinking. Maybe.

From my modern perspective, it seems that the better approach would have been to tell us how evil the former administration was, and to win converts with that message, saying,
"Look! This is what Jesus saved you from!"
The early church fathers, however, in their timeframes and perspectives, seem to have thought it best to cover up the change in administration, and make people think that the Old Testament gods and the New Testament God are one and the same. They might have thought that people wouldn't believe the truth. They might've thought that it was too shocking and horrifying. Perhaps they thought it would be simpler to present it as a passing of the torch from father to son, rather than,
"An entire space war was fought, and your god lost. There's this other God that none of you have ever even heard about. He's in charge now, and your old god is super pissed about it!"
I mean... I'm not sure that people were ready to understand that then... or now, for that matter, and it's not exactly a comforting message.

The concept that Satan could be overthrown, and yet we will still have better lives if we don't incur his wrath, might be confusing at first, to some people, but it's because of his psychic abilities.

The worst demons, including Satan, are confined now, to a place known as Hell, which occupies the same space as this planet. They can't be killed, however; nor can they be completely or permanently incapacitated. Their effectiveness has been limited, by their imprisonment, and by the "local authorities" (Jesus' agents who remain here as our protectors), but their minds are still active; and they can still psychically influence us and cause harm from a distance. They can't physically come and harass us anymore, in person, but they can send groups of earthbound spirits (a.k.a. demons, like my group of attachments) whom they have authority over, and a measure of control over, to harass us. They can also influence other living people to do us harm. So, there is still danger. And if we were to follow the rules of Catholicism, for example, to the letter, we might be safer, because we'd be less likely to attract the attention of demons. This is because we wouldn't be doing some of the things that draw their attention, things like playing with Ouija boards, or watching porn. We might be safer... but then we'd never learn the truth.

Incidentally, I have theorized that this danger of attracting the attention of demons is the reason our prayers sometimes seem to go unanswered. In other words, if we appear to be shown favoritism from Jesus' side, we'll be more susceptible to retaliation from demons. For example, if we pray for assistance with our financial needs, we might get some unexpected windfall; but, if we do, it will probably only be enough to barely scrape by, because if we were to win the lottery, that would look suspicious to demons, and then demons would be crafting some plan, trying to instigate some event that would cost us money, something to take our winnings from us. Or, when we pray for healing for a loved one, and then that loved one dies, that might be because leaving this demom-infested existence is the best option for them. It's difficult to see it from that perspective, if you don't understand yet what a mistake it is that we're here in the first place; if you think that this is God's creation, and that this shabby imitation of life is what He wants for us.

All of the Apostles, except for John, met with bad ends; dying gruesome, torturous deaths. In most cases, I believe they had been warned of what was coming to them too. Most of the Old Testament prophets didn't meet with very good endings either, for that matter. What did they all have in common? They all had knowledge of the spirit world, and they were all spreading messages that someone didn't want someone to hear. Believing that wrong-narrative, and following those half-Satanic church teachings might keep people safe from being marked for horrific deaths, or being otherwise targeted and harassed. It might. There is still a problem, though. That version of the story doesn't work anymore for a lot of people; people like myself, who are incapable of acceptance without understanding. In fact, our inability to buy what the church tried to sell us, is precisely the reason that we, me and my demons, are here, in this situation, at this very moment.

I was innocently trying to communicate with the spirits who were visiting my house, because I had become Agnostic, because the Bible seemed nonsensical to me at best, and downright evil at worst, and I didn't believe it. Besides that, I'd been raised Protestant, and most of them don't even acknowledge the existence of demons; therefore, I'd never in my life been instructed that anything negative could possibly result from communicating with spirits. My demons had come from similar backgrounds, and they had made the choice they made based on wrong-thoughted church teachings; specifically that Jesus and His Father were those mean gods, and that sex isn't allowable in their Kingdom. They thought they'd be wearing white robes and singing hymns in a celibate church choir if they went up there, which couldn't be farther from the truth. There is an ever-increasing population of souls on this planet who desperately need for the truth to come out, so that they can make an informed choice.

Someone asked me,
"If Satan can't be incapacitated, why can't he be destroyed altogether then?"
It may be that only God knows the true answer, but I do have an educated guess. I think that it can't be done; not without unmaking the entire universe, which would destroy all of us who are still here. This, I think, is because we are "one," so to speak. We were made by Satan; even our souls are fragments of his soul.
If, or how, we get divorced from him completely when we go to Jesus' Kingdom... I don't know. Right now, however, all of us who are here, are tied to him.
So... there are some here, both living and deceased, who still haven't chosen to follow Jesus, and many creations here, including animals, who are simply too beautiful to lose. Really, I think that's what it is; I think that's the only reason this has been allowed to continue for so long.
They wanted me.
They wanted Daisy, and Butterbean, Oswald, Wurthers, and the other animal friends I've loved.
They wanted A... and Dee, and J.P., and P.J., and they still do, despite the fact that they made that one wrong, ill-informed choice,
And they want you too.

That's hard to believe sometimes. It's hard to believe that any of us are worth the horrible things that happen here. 

But, they don't want to lose any of us, as Jesus said, except the son of perdition, whom, I think, is Satan himself.

John 17:12, KJV,
"While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled."

It's hard to believe; but, when I look at my babies... my pets, that is, I understand. They are worth anything.


Iniquity = Inequality

I don't expect everyone to believe me; regardless of the amount of evidence, or the number of references I provide. Some people are simply too lost within the system Satan has designed to obscure the truth; by keeping us in the dark about who he is, and how this creation came to exist, by keeping everyone from thinking and learning, because we're distracted by frivolous pursuits, and busy performing the mundane tasks required by life in a skin suit. By keeping us on a conveyor belt, in other words; heads down, blinders on, going to work every day, keeping the grass mowed, doing what we're supposed to do. Others are simply too brainwashed by church teachings devised to prevent us from acquiring any new or additional information; like the Catholic on Reddit who said to me,
"If your psychic experiences have revealed anything that goes against church teachings, then they were not from God!"
Some people are simply too easy to program; and they've swallowed what they've been fed, hook, line, and sinker.

Others still, like many of the Protestant members of my family and community, were raised to believe only in that mean god who might "STRIKE YOU DOWN!" if you're not grateful enough for this "gift" of your life here on Earth.
They fear God.
They aren't convinced that they can go to Heaven when they die. They see this life and its hardships as some test they're in danger of failing. That is a Satanic message, which they have gleaned from church teachings; specifically from hellfire and damnation preaching. They've been so poisoned by these teachings that they can't see that salvation is a gift, and all one must do is accept it.

Some Christians, from both camps, have a downright eerie sort of devotion; one which allows them to read those Old Testament horror stories and then say things like,
"Well, I don't understand that, but God is good all the time."
They know it doesn't sound right. It doesn't sit right with them, but they won't admit it.
They'll profess that they love God; yet I always sense that it's a programmed response. They're saying it out of fear and obligation; because it's "what we're supposed to say."
You can't be that way.
You have to be brave enough to question everything you've ever been taught, or you'll never break free.

Satan is our creator god, who created this universe, and all of us. He claims omniscience, claims to be able to see the future; and possibly can, to an extent, except for acts of free will. He is the "god" who has a plan for our entire lives. He used to have the power to decide what happened to us in the afterlife; and he still does, if you don't choose Jesus. He is the embodiment of the idea of "God" that most people have; the god who will test you, like he tested Job and Abraham, the god who might destroy your village if you don't follow his rules and regulations.

Yet, he is not the Most High, even though he has done everything within his power to convince us otherwise. I think that realization alters the perspective most people grew up with quite a bit. It's difficult, at first, to wrap one's mind around the concept that a second-tier creation (or third? fourth? who knows exactly?) could be powerful enough to create all of us and everything we've ever known. That is because we have been deceived into seriously underestimating how powerful we actually are. A crucial point has been misinterpreted; that our existence in this universe, and the forms we are in, both before and after death, are inhibiting our inherent Divine power.

John 14:12, KJV,
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father."

And greater works than these.
We were always supposed to be powerful Divine beings, but we were made defectively. We weren't given the correct physical forms to begin with, and we still don't have the correct forms even after death... here. We weren't given nearly as much power as we should have; we weren't given the abilities we should have, or the freedom to use those abilities, to do things like... like go out and create our own universes. We were intentionally created small and powerless, and then tricked and miseducated, with the intention of keeping us imprisoned here.

Jesus offers us a chance to escape this injustice, and to follow Him to His Kingdom, where these defects can be corrected.

I think that not understanding that concept, of our Divinity being limited by our material bodies and by this material world, has created a very wrongful interpretation of what sin actually is. To be "born in sin" has nothing to do with being the product of sexual intercourse; it means to be born into a flesh form, on this Earth, where we have limited abilities, trapped in mortal bodies which will suffer and decay. Because we have needs, for things like food and shelter, because we suffer if we don't have those things, because we have to work hard and struggle to get those things, and because we become sick and die, that's corrupt; that's evil, and it was never supposed to have been that way. This is a "sinful" existence, but it's not our sin; it's Satan's sin.

It's funny to me that "iniquity," in the Bible, means sin; but most people assume that "sin" means having sex, or saying a bad word, or something equally inconsequential. The word "iniquity" actually means "unequal," however; which is actually a lot closer to the real definition of sin. Satan intentionally incorporated inequality into his design. 

He made animals to be at the mercy of humans, and women to be second-class citizens, at the mercy of men, and all of us subject to the sadistic whims of spirits. He created a world of haves and have-nots, where everyone has the same needs, but not the same access to resources. Why? To watch us fight over it. To watch us suffer. It's entertainment. Probably the funniest thing, to him, is that spirit beings, like himself, don't have needs.

Let that sink in.

The person who invented cancer has never suffered so much as a cough, cold, flu, or sniffle.
Have you ever seen someone who was dying of cancer? Up close?
I have; and I can say that the more privileged you are, the less you think about these things.
The person who invented poverty, who has watched people and animals freeze to death, and starve to death, and has done nothing to prevent it, and has offered them no assistance...
has never felt a chill.
And he hasn't got a stomach to feel hunger pains.
The person who invented sinus infections... that might seem like a less important example, but it comes to mind because it's something I'm plagued with...
didn't have to create sinus cavities in the first place! We could've been designed without them! All these bodily functions and systems, they're like all the electronic bells and whistles on newer model cars; it's as if they were added to the design just so they could malfunction and cause problems.
The list could go on indefinitely, but do you see?

These are torture suits we're in.

Spirits don't have physical needs, and we shouldn't either. We should be living in an idyllic paradise, where we have no needs, and where we can conjure up anything we desire. That is Divinity; and that is what Satan stole from us, and it is what Jesus returns to us.

I do think that we should strive to be good people, do good works, and to generally "be the light," as Matthew advised, in this world. I'm not saying that there are not any so-called sins which are our own. Things like abusing those who are less fortunate, or those who are less powerful, such as animals, women, and children; those things are wrong. Most so-called "sins," however, are either nothing of any real consequence, nothing more than natural responses, or they are the result of living in this flesh suit condition, which is something that we can't help, and never asked for.  

So, this brings me back around to my original topic, to what began all this soul-searching in the first place. This is the reason why even true-believing Christians, and even very good, saintly people, can and do get attacked by, and even possessed by, demons, even if they've done absolutely nothing wrong, and nothing to invite them... and they can't always get rid of them.
This is demon turf. This is Satan's house. They do what they want here.

It is Jesus' jurisdiction, now, but, to all the people who say things like,
"I don't understand why you'd have demons if you're a good person..."
or
"I don't understand why you have demons if you've been praying for deliverance..."
I have this to say to them.

That's sort of like asking why young women keep getting raped in the dirtiest part of some inner city ghetto run by drug gangs. You're asking, "Can't the police handle it?"
And the obvious answer is, they can only do so much, because of the situation. Their presence in the area certainly lowers the crime rate, and they certainly do a lot to assist victims after the crimes have taken place. But, the fact is, there are simply too many criminals in the vicinity, and they can't possibly prevent all crimes from happening... and the truth is, it's just a bad neighborhood, and not any sort of place where young women should be living.
This is why Jesus invites us to go somewhere else to live. He's not "fixing" this place; He's inviting us to go and join Him, somewhere else.

Beyond this universe, there is a place where there will be no sickness, no death, no needs, and where nothing and no one will ever be lost to us again; and that is where we should be living. While we're stuck here in this Hellish vicinity, however, we can make our stay worthwhile, by making it a little bit more Heaven-like for those in need, by spreading the word, and by loving one another with the kind of love that makes you feel like wings might bust out of your back, and you might just float on up there. And we can take comfort in the knowledge that there are knights in shining armor --and a King, even-- who can, and have, and will, fight for us, and rescue us, because we are worth saving.