Scary Epiphany, New Agers, and Telepathy

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A Scary Epiphany

Demon complained a lot after I wrote "10 Myths About Demonic Possession."
Apparently, he worried about it all night. I fell asleep to:
"You should not have told those humans that right there! You should not have said that!" 
And I woke up to:
"I can't believe you prayed that to those humans! You should not have said that stuff! You should not have learned that stuff!"
Demon thinks its amusing to say "prayed" in place of "said."
Shortly after I woke up, demon said,

"A lot of exorcisms might not have worked; but the demon just stopped putting on the theatrics so it could stay. And if they [the host] couldn't talk to the demon, they might not have ever known."

I thought,
"Wow. That's a good point."
I wondered, however, if demon was only telling me this in hopes that I would write it and it would damage the faith of exorcists? I think that is possible, but it's a point worth considering anyway, even though it did come straight from demon.


The New Age/Lightworker Approach

I thought of another probable myth, also. I was watching a psychic medium on YouTube, reviewing another psychic something, both of whom claim to deal with demons. Anyway, the topic came up that demons are "low vibrational" creatures and they will attach, like a parasite, to a human who is vibrating at that same level due to depression, loneliness, or some other psychological problem. The people who think this, seem to think that if the host would simply "raise their vibrations", or, in other words, "get happy", that the demon would "fall off", as it would not be a match anymore.

My opinion: Personally, I think these people came up with that theory while they were smoking something really strong in the back of a rainbow-colored VW van, possibly while watching "Aliens." I don't even want a hit of that; pass, man.

I'll admit that I do not know what the hell vibrations, in this sense of the word, are, but this is just another form of victim-shaming. It's a hippified version of the "Only a bad person would have demons" myth. That, and I simply don't believe there's any truth to it. There has never been anything that bad wrong with me psychologically. I'm actually fairly happy, even now.

The concept of a demon as a parasite who forms a symbiotic bond with their host is, well, less far out there. I can see how this theory developed. They do seem parasitic in nature, for sure. People from this school of thought seem to think that demons need to feed off the host's energy, and that having a demon is draining, for the host, for that reason. I don't think that demons need our energy. Having a demon is draining, for me, in the same way that trying to pay attention in Algebra class was draining. It's draining simply because of all the extra (and unwanted) mental activity.

The idea that demons need something from us and match themselves to us might not be completely wrong either;  but from my experience, I'd have to say that it's very different from what most New Agers or Christians imagine. According to my demon, they actually frequently fall in love with us. (Again, Genesis 6 & Enoch support this concept.) So, in that sense, they might actually be getting some emotional needs met by possessing, harassing, or otherwise haunting their chosen person; whom, of course they matched themselves to because of (romantic) attraction.

I will say that I can tell that some of these New Age/Lightworker types have actually met demons before. They do say some things about them that ring true. I think that they are simply misguided in their understanding of them. All things considered, "the Church Approach" has produced better results for me.


A Further Explanation of Telepathy

I thought I'd also take a moment to explain a bit more about how the telepathy works. It might be useful to my readers before I proceed with documenting my personal experiences. I explained, as well as I can about the rhythms thing. I don't think I could ever explain the extent of it. It's in EVERYTHING. For example, it's in my footsteps as I walk, one syllable per step:
[step] You [step] can [step] nev [step] er [step] be [step] in [step] Hea [step] ven.
Extinguishing a cigarette; everytime I touch the cigarette butt to the ashtray, a syllable. Scratching my head; every scrape of my fingernails, a syllable. It's in everything.

The other type of telepathy, where I hear him in my head, according to demon, is combined with clairsentience. Demon describes it as things that he "think-says" and things that he "think-thinks"; meaning that all of the words I hear that way are actually his thoughts, but some of them I'm meant to hear, and some I'm not. The things he "think-says" are messages that he is intentionally "thinking to me", as a form of conversation, wanting me to hear them. The things that he "think-thinks" are simply his thoughts, which he didn't intend for me to hear. Well, that's what demon says, anyway.

Now, could this be a lie; as in, maybe I can't really read his mind? Sure. I've considered that. I'm a little bit inclined to believe that he might be telling the truth, however. One reason that it seems true, although this could be a ruse also, is that he often asks me a question and then answers himself. For example, he might ask,
"That is not that bad, is it?"
Then immediately he will say,
"No, it's not."
I used to be really confused by this, and I'd think, "to myself",
"Why does he always answer his own questions?"
One day he got mad at me and said,
"Yes! This demon just loves to ask you questions and then answer them himself! Motherlover! You should not be able to hear this demon's thoughts!"
So, I thought,
"Oh. He's thinking the answer after asking the question... "
To which demon replied, angrily,
"Yass, Catholic!"
This demon, at least, refers to himself in the third person most of the time; sometimes in singular, and sometimes in plural. Sometimes he's "this demon", and sometimes he's "we". I think he's trying to imply, when using the plural form, that I am possessed by more than one demon. I think that may have been true at times; but other times, he might be saying that to scare me. Actually, that reminds me of another possible reason why sometimes exorcisms appear to fail:

It might sometimes be the case that there are multiple demons, and an exorcism expels some of them, but the host can't discern that. In this case, it might appear that the exorcism was a failure, when really it was a success.

This demon also tends to talk like Dr. Seuss, by the way. I think that might be a typical characteristic of demons. There is a lot of wordplay, double entendres, and intentionally mispronouncing words. He's usually very funny. On one of the first days of this, I said (thought),
"You sound like Dr. Seuss!"
He replied,
"We have heard that before. Lots of people have said that."
I specifically remember him saying that, but actually, just now, as I was typing that, I was thinking,
"Hmmm... lots of people,"
because I have reached the conclusion that this type of possession doesn't happen often. Demon commented,
"Well, lots of people can hear us, but they don't know it's demons. They think they're crazy."

There is also a lot of repetition in what I hear from demon. Sometimes he'll "say" the same thing repeatedly for most of the day. This, also, could be a trick designed to drive me crazy; however, I have speculated that maybe he's got a bit of anxiety. Maybe he's mulling over that one thing all day long, and I wasn't meant to hear all of it. On that note, I've mentioned that he "talks" nearly constantly; including as I'm falling asleep and as I'm waking up. He's usually midsentence when I wake up in the mornings. If I awaken in the middle of the night, he'll always be talking already. Now, as a torture technique, this doesn't make sense. Why would he keep jabbering away all night while I'm sleeping? Seems like a waste of energy. I suspect that much of that is actually his thoughts, because demons don't sleep, as far as I know. Therefore, he's probably incredibly bored while I'm sleeping, and again, mulling over his own thoughts. (They do get tired and rest, however, even though they don't sleep.)

Another reason that I believe I might really be able to hear demon's thoughts is the fact that sometimes he's quiet for a while; yet, if I say (think) something to him, he'll always answer. I suspect that, in these times, he's either resting or blocking me (which he can do, at least somewhat), or, he's actually away for the time being (because I do think he leaves sometimes). However, when someone addresses you, you automatically think a response. Even if you're mad at the person and refusing to speak to them, you won't be able to help thinking a response. I suspect that might be partially what's happening with him. I know it's happening with me; and that brings me to yet another reason why I don't believe that this sort of psychic connection happens (that) often. Most demonologists or exorcists advise people who are seeking deliverance to stop interacting with the demon. Don't talk to it, they say; that's inviting it to stay. Well... um... I can't stop talking to him. I hear him constantly, and when he addresses me, I think a response. He also responds to my thoughts to myself. I have entire conversations unwillingly. Anyway, I don't believe that demon will ever be able to trick me into thinking he's gone away simply by going quiet. I guess that's the silver lining of this cloud.

Additionally, I sometimes hear his words with an echo. His statements sometimes overlap. For example, he'll be halfway through a sentence, and then I start hearing that same sentence start over, simultaneously. He says that's because I'm hearing him think about what he's going to say before he says it.

What I actually "hear" is difficult to describe. Getting a demon will really make you analyze your cognitive processes. In an attempt to explain, I ask you to think of your inner voice; your internal dialogue. This is your thoughts, but they are in words, for most people, anyway, as I understand it. For example, you might pull into your driveway and think to yourself,
"Oh yeah, I should check my mail."
Well, demon is this other voice that comes along and says,
"Yes, you do need to check your mail."
It's an intrusive thought. It's those thoughts that pop into your head randomly, and you wonder where in the world that came from. You might ask yourself,
"Why am I randomly thinking of this?"
It might be something that you don't actually even think or believe; yet there it is, a little thought appearing in your head. I realize now that this has been happening to me for most of my life.

Back to my example, however; I know that that's demon because, for one thing, I don't answer myself like that. Also, he actually sounds different from me. My internal voice sounds pretty much the same as my speaking voice. Demon actually has three voices that he uses. The one he uses most often is a male voice that is middle-pitched and sort of comical. Then there's a deeper, sexy-man type of voice. There's also one that I have dubbed "the girl demon." It's higher-pitched, and very, well, bitchy. They are all him, though.

He's even switched to "the girl demon" voice before, and I've giggled and thought,
"That's that girl demon."
I mean, I can't help it. It's funny. It really doesn't mean that I want this; it just means that sometimes it is funny, and I figure I deserve a laugh if anyone ever did. Anyway, when I think that, he responds (in the girl demon voice),
"Yes, this is that girl demon."
Then in one of the other voices, he'll say,
"Yes, this demon recording you for Satan himself will even use that girl demon's voice, so you can laugh and laugh."
Once, he added,
"Yes, it is beautiful to see you laugh."
That "recording you" thing; that's another story. Also, I can "hear" emotion and volume. I can tell when he's tired, sad, or angry. He can whisper to me, or yell at me. Sometimes he sounds very faint, as if he's far away, or very weak. He sounds like that after exorcisms.

So, if you're still sane after reading this, bless you! Maybe now you see why I think that demon-telepathy has got to be the best method for driving someone crazy that has ever been devised. Diabolical!